Stress vs Pregnancy
So it seems that being stressed closely resembles the symptoms of pregnancy.
I’m so tired, yet can’t sleep. And when I do, my dreams are vivid and crazy. I wake up feeling sick and spend the day on the edge of nausea, fighting it away by eating constantly. Which of course inevitably leads to more weight gain than is healthy.
And then there’s the emotions. All the emotions. From wobbling on the verge of tears, to insatiable anger.
And everything on hold. Waiting for that date, in the not too distant future, that seems forever away.
But the difference is, there’s no lovely reward at the end of this. Because a salary that barely scratches 5 figures is not really a reward, it’s survival.
I want to click my heels and fly away from all this. I want to scoop my girls up in my arms and hold them tightly for more than half an hour two days a week. I just want this over and am screaming silently but louder and louder at only being halfway through.