Category: Themes

Subject specific posts, grouped by theme.

I’m not allowed to sleep. The night begins with a cat jumping on and off the bed, miaowing as she does so. Then DD2 wakes up and joins us in bed,  pulling my hair and kicking me as she settles …

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I’m nearly 40 and I’m on the precipice of losing everything I’ve worked for. I have to give up my home, my garden, everything inside it. I will have my clothes and books. How do you even begin to start …

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So I mentioned that I’ve been wanting to leave since February, although to be honest, I’ve fantasised about it for far longer than that. But when I finally found the courage to tell my wife, of course she wasn’t happy …

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In February I told my partner I wanted to leave. In March, I moved into my parents’ house for a couple of weeks in secret. And then they needed it back so I had to go home again. But I …

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A friend will be over later. The only friend I’ve ever really mentioned this stuff to. I told her about the suicide attempt last year and she gave me a hug and saw me home when I got too drunk …

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The loneliness is suffocating. It eats away at me, refusing to let me turn the corner. No words spoken. No-one to turn to. All of it a secret. And the secret is killing me. The fantasies of death all pervading. …

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